Kohutav.

Juhhuu!

Nägin just juhuslikult kellegi signatuuris PK's geniaalset mõtteavaldust: "Tee tööd ja näe vaeva, muidu tuleb armastus!" Ja mulle jõudis pauguga kohale, et selline juhtum oleks väga ebasobiv, jama ja nõme, kui tuleks. Sest see ajaks kõik mu ilusad plaanid nässu. See tõdemus on kuidagi väga... rahustav. Ja rõõmustav. Sest see tähendab, et asjaolu, et kõik nässu on läinud siiamaani, peabki nii olema. Sest kuidagi teisiti ei saa.

Kes mind veidi lähemalt teab, see saab võibolla aru kui võimsaks see teadmine mu teeb. Või noh, vähemalt loodetavasti tugevamaks kui enne.

Uus algus

Loodetavasti. See koht siin tekkis juba imeammu, aga laiskus lõi pähe ja takistas seda aktiivselt pidamast. Siis elutsesin ma vahepeal MSNi blogis, aga sellega oli pisuke jama - mõnedel viskas üle et nad näevad minu eem.. halamist, ja siis ma lõpetasin selle enam-vähem ära. Ja praegu ma ei teagi, kas sellist kohakest üldse tarvis on, aga igaks juhuks võib ta ju olemas olla. Äkki tuleb mõni huvitav, tark ja särav mõte kunagi. Ebatõenäoline küll.

Kujundust sai palju muudetud, värve ja kõike muud sellist. Isegi keelt. Eks ma ise olen ju ka muutunud. Ja ehk isegi tugevamaks saanud. Ma tean et ma saan hakkama kõigega, kui ma seda piisavalt tahan. Sest ei saa olla midagi hullemat kui eelmine aasta. (Jah, ma mõtlen ikka veel et aasta algab sügisel. Kool, mis teha.) Ja sellist aastat ei sooviks ma oma vaenlasele ka. Noh, nüüd on see möödas, jääb üle ainult head mälestused kokku koguda, karpi panna ja kapi otsa lükata. Sealt saab neid siis kätte, kui kurb on ja tundub, et õnne pole olemaski.

Ikka veel elus ja olemas,

About an hour after the last post I learned that he was dating a good friend of mine. The same friend who informed me previously that I acted like I was in love. I felt like hitting my head against a brick wall. Why does it always happen to me?

Felt like posting. My life has been a row of highly positive and deeply negative events. That's exhausting, mentally.

First low: hopless love. Solution: let's wait and see.
Second low: he knows!. Solution: I was reassured he doesn't.
Third low: maybe my parents will divorce. Solution: it's only maybe.
Fourth low: it will soon be schooltime. Solution: but there's two more weeks of break!

First high: I can go to training tomorrow!
Second high: I will see a few long-lost friends soon.
Third high: I will get my photos tomorrow.
Fourth high: One of my friends will be coming over in a few days, to overnight.
Fifth high: have I said it yet? I'm in love.
Sixth high: life still is good.

One more low: the weather is horrible.

Ok, that was the short synopsis of my life right now. As you might have noticed, ther are no solutions to the high's. Why do I need those?

Hello again. I guess I haven't visited this place in a while, but oh well.

This weekend was a roleplayish one too. My char, a mage, was killed once, but resurrected by two priests. Good for me. Most of the posessions of of the other party-members was looted, but mine was left for me. I guess the looters got bored with me getting all of the OG stuff out of the pouch, and forgot about my IG things. Good for me. Both of my wands were taken. One of them was broken. One, the looters lost in he woods. One of my party-members found it later and returned it to me. Good for me. It was the more powerful one. Lucky me.

The weird situation I was in for some time, solved itself. The solution is positive. Not because of what it is, but because it is a solution, and every answer is better than no answer at all.